We often think the hardest part of moving abroad is getting the visa. But what about the daily, hidden stress of living on one?
My 14-Year Visa Nightmare in Singapore: A Warning for Every Expat
We often think the hardest part of moving abroad is getting the visa. But what about the daily, hidden stress of living on one?
Many of us start our lives abroad on temporary permits, and for almost fourteen years in Singapore, that was my reality. It was a journey that took me from the sweet optimism of a "golden age" to the stressful precarity of living in a home that could ask me to leave at any moment. This is a story I want to share, because the tests I faced have a universal quality for any immigrant living with an uncertain future.
The Golden Age & The Seismic Shift
When I moved to Singapore in 2008, immigration was wide open. I arrived on a tourist visa with a new degree and no job, and within weeks I had an Employment Pass (EP). The system was stable and welcoming. My residency was tied to my job, but changing jobs was a simple formality. Life was sweet.
Then, in 2011, a seismic shift changed everything. A tense general election, fueled by public discontent over the cost of living, caused the government to clamp down hard on immigration. The target of this discontent often fell on foreigners. I felt it personally — a growing sense of being unwelcome, which culminated in a racially motivated physical assault.
Suddenly, the ground beneath my feet had disappeared. EPs were no longer a formality. Renewals were no longer guaranteed. My long-term future became a giant question mark.
The Scramble: A Cage of My Own Making
Faced with this new instability, I applied for Permanent Residency and was rejected. Twice. My worst fears were realized when my employer lost their ability to issue more visas. With only six months left before I would be forced to leave the country I loved, I was faced with a choice: take a job I didn't want, or leave.
I chose a third, high-risk option: I started my own business to issue my own visa.
It was a terrifying and empowering experience, but it came at a cost. To justify my residency, I had to meet steep government-mandated revenue targets, which meant working myself to the bone, seven days a week. My solution had become its own kind of cage: I was professionally trapped by the very visa that allowed me to stay. I wanted to transition into my therapy work, but I was obligated to remain an English teacher.
The Final Straw & The Hard-Won Lesson
After years of this stressful limbo, my business was audited by the immigration ministry during the height of the COVID pandemic when my revenues were at their lowest. It was months of crippling anxiety. In the end, my visa was miraculously renewed for the maximum five years — a show of great confidence. But by then, I was done.
It's one thing to leave a country by choice; it's another to feel like you have no choice but to leave. That's a feeling that takes a long time to process.
When I reflect on it now, two lessons stand out. First, when you live abroad on a temporary visa, you are at the mercy of unpredictable forces. But the second is more empowering: I had an intention to stay, but I had no plan. I just assumed it would all work out. And when the predictable ground gave way, I was left scrambling.
So this is the wisdom I gained: when you move abroad, don't take the stability of your long-term future for granted. Keep one foot in the present, and one foot firmly planted in planning for the future.
It's the price you pay for a secure and sustainable life abroad.
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